always electric

It is heartbreaking to be near a person you know you’ll never have, and more so, when you realize that you don’t even know how to act with them. That you’re nothing to them, and rightfully so, because you don’t even know what to say. How much longer before I disappear completely from x’s life? Not long, not long at all. I’m not the someone that she wants or needs; I don’t dare to show her that she’s my someone. Love is a losing game, isn’t it. Then, when you find out you’re the only one playing all along, doesn’t that make you a double loser? In every sense of the word. Oh well. Day 3 of facing fears, gogogo.

cosmic-wanderings:

The most beautiful space photo I’ve ever seen
The Small Magellanic Cloud (SMC) is one of the Milky Way’s closest galactic neighbors. Even though it is a small, or so-called dwarf galaxy, the SMC is so bright that it is visible to the unaided eye from the Southern Hemisphere and near the equator. Many navigators, including Ferdinand Magellan who lends his name to the SMC, used it to help find their way across the oceans.  Modern astronomers are also interested in studying the SMC (and its cousin, the Large Magellanic Cloud), but for very different reasons. Because the SMC is so close and bright, it offers an opportunity to study phenomena that are difficult to examine in more distant galaxies.  New Chandra data of the SMC have provided one such discovery: the first detection of X-ray emission from young stars with masses similar to our Sun outside our Milky Way galaxy. The new Chandra observations of these low-mass stars were made of the region known as the “Wing” of the SMC. In this composite image of the Wing the Chandra data is shown in purple, optical data from the Hubble Space Telescope is shown in red, green and blue and infrared data from the Spitzer Space Telescope is shown in red.
via NASA

cosmic-wanderings:

The most beautiful space photo I’ve ever seen

The Small Magellanic Cloud (SMC) is one of the Milky Way’s closest galactic neighbors. Even though it is a small, or so-called dwarf galaxy, the SMC is so bright that it is visible to the unaided eye from the Southern Hemisphere and near the equator. Many navigators, including Ferdinand Magellan who lends his name to the SMC, used it to help find their way across the oceans.

Modern astronomers are also interested in studying the SMC (and its cousin, the Large Magellanic Cloud), but for very different reasons. Because the SMC is so close and bright, it offers an opportunity to study phenomena that are difficult to examine in more distant galaxies.

New Chandra data of the SMC have provided one such discovery: the first detection of X-ray emission from young stars with masses similar to our Sun outside our Milky Way galaxy. The new Chandra observations of these low-mass stars were made of the region known as the “Wing” of the SMC. In this composite image of the Wing the Chandra data is shown in purple, optical data from the Hubble Space Telescope is shown in red, green and blue and infrared data from the Spitzer Space Telescope is shown in red.

via NASA

(via peekadora)

I nearly lost my temper for the first time in ages on Saturday. It was nice to feel something so decisively. It beats this faint sense of dread and discomfort. I should be excited. I should be thrilled. Instead, it is an amorphous whirl of ambivalence. But I’m not anybody’s top choice either, hahaha. I think that is the source of unease,- being a tag-along. But it’s okay. I’m used to it: of not being a priority, of not being wanted the same way I want people. I don’t need it, I don’t mind it. I can take it until I make it. I’m just going to let loose, have fun, and nothing is going to change. How boringgggggzz. Mr Palahnuik, I want to believe you, but never mind, for now I’ll just feel with words and films, and remember rainy days with Amelie soundtracks.

Please know there are much better things in life than being lonely or liked or bitter or mean or self-conscious. We are all full of shit. Go love someone just because; I know your heart may be badly bruised, or even the victim of numerous knifings, but it will always heal, even if you don’t want it to; it keeps going. There are the most fantastic, beautiful things and people out there, I promise. It is up to you to find them.

—Chuck Palahniuk

(Source: hellanne, via writingsforwinter)